5:10 p.m. I felt a twinge of jealousy when Matt wrote me to say that he and his friend Josh went out with another girl friend and her friends.

This is totally unacceptable behavior on my part. And, I am the first to admit it.

So what - they went to a bar, got hammered and danced.

But yikes, my stomach did a twist when I read his words. I trust Matt. I do. I just hate the thought that he's out having fun with a bunch of girls I don't know.

He could go out with my girl friends and I wouldn't think anything of it.

I don't know if I'd normally react this way, if I wasn't anticipating to hear about a job. I've been tense and kinda aloof consumed in my own thoughts and plans.

Or, am I a truly jealous person?

n@s