7:56 p.m. I'm off to Mississauga tomorrow for some training with an administrative specialist. The past two weeks I've been kinda wingin' it. I'm sure the folks at head office will be pleased to have spotless paperwork next week.

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I've been feeling alright lately. No major dips in moods, or to the point I want to cry my eyes out moods.

Though yesterday I was annoyed with Matt, but I couldn't tell you why specifically. I was in no mood to talk to him and wasn't really engaged in the conversation. I felt this way once two weeks ago when he did a monologue about politics. I just kept my mouth shut and rolled my eyes.

Hmm, and I didn't think I was moody lately.

I think it's because I haven't seen Matt in a bit, and I'm used to seeing him every other day or so. He wrote an email today saying that he missed me. Some comfort that I'm not a freakshow for being kinda crumpy (the word I say when I'm both cranky and grumpy).

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Indulged in a serious workout tonight. Completed both bodypump and bodyflow and I'm ready to hit the sack. I might have konked out had the gym not been an icebox.
I kept laughing at myself trying to keep balance. Doing the side plank? I thought my arm was going to snap because it was shakin' so badly. Feeling a little limber now.

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Sent in the D2L assignment and am happy with what I put together. I tried to exhaust as many ideas as I could (and had matt's friend Bre help me -she's a recruiter for another company in ottawa). Maybe next week I'll hear about a 2nd interview?

It just feels right, this job. The company. Everything about it feels right. When I reflect on the record experience, easy to look in retrospect, I didn't have that same kinda comfort level. Sure I would've liked the job, but I don't think it was my element.

Perhaps it's the potential the job has. An opportunity to grow. The worst thing for me is a position that's stagnant.

Even this goodlife position is good.

I'm amazed how I lasted at the Lung. Really. I think I could've destroyed myself physically had I stayed longer. Even more so mentally. I might even say I did do damage. Lesson learned, that's for sure.

n@s