10:25 a.m. Confirmed:

Goodlife-1
RIM-0

Disappointing.

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Also, my plan of asking Matt to live together was aptly squashed last night when he told me that his roomies plan on staying another year.

I immediately scolded myself for even thinking of the idea. Perhaps he's not even thinking of living together. I decided not to bring up the topic.

Oh. But I did...a little later.

And he gave me the 'omigod, that is the biggest step ever' look. I regretted bringing up the topic and closed myself off physically because I felt like an ass for doing so.

He said, stuttering a bit, that if we lived together that it'd be testing grounds for marriage. He reiterated that it's a big step for him.

And, although I didn't say this to him (because I was still feeling like an idiot for broaching the subject) I should have explained that it doesn't seem like a big step for me and that lots of people live together. Katie and Dan have lived together for 3 years and there's no plans to marry. I don't want him to equate move in = marriage. We all know my cynical views of what the institution of marriage are. But he's your traditional Italian guy (but believes in living together before marriage).

I told him to forget about it, to drop it altogether. All night he tells me how much he loves me; I think he felt bad (though shouldn't).

So my little plan of working at rim and living with Matt is a bust.

n@s